No one reads "me" anymore. People stopped commenting, viewing, or even glancing at my blogs. I first started this as a tool for self-contemplation. However, I came to feed off of people's thoughts on my experiences. I left in order to start anew and see if a part of my "self" existed there in my second blog. Even there, I sought attention, which was left unnoticed. Perhaps I wanted you all to see that I can be happy and believe in such happiness, hoping that you all could convince me as well... in my successes of traveling abroad. However, you all left.
The hallways of opinions have gone silent. Not even an echo of my words or the trailing footsteps of my thoughts linger. Do you all remember me? Do you all know me? Feel curious about me?
I am a person who reaches out hoping to be noticed. An existence wanting to be acknowledged. Or will I be forgotten? Will my words, which I hoped to touch even one person, be scoffed and weathered down to nothingness by time and progress? Will I diminish back to being a stranger?
I can offer no sexually provocative pictures, hilarious nor cynical quips. All that I can offer and have offered is myself.
You are all gone. Should I disappear as well?
In your "Que Sera, Sera" post you sent us all to The Traveling Thought!
ReplyDeleteI only check back here when you don't post there for more than a week (I start to panic and think you've been kidnapped in Morocco to serve in some sex dungeon catering to depraved Germans or Republican Americans).
By the way, you're looking pretty fashionable in your pictures.
Haha. Well, I won't be going to Morocco for another two weeks. And thank you! I sometimes feel like I have to dress up due to the fact that everyone here dresses up for more than they do in the U.S.
DeleteWe ALL should dress up more! In October I took a vow to always wear a pocket square with a jacket and I know the world has been better for it.
DeleteYou know, some of the finest pocket squares are produced by Italian houses, so you should try to return with three or four.
Haha. Unfortunately, that would also require me to buy a decently looking Italian jacket to go with that pocket square. At the moment, most of my (ever-depleting) funds are going to booking trips.
DeleteKeep shouting. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks. :)
DeleteI'm still commenting but blogger went weird for a few days and my comments would not go on some blogs. Your travel blog disappears from the list for no reason (even though I am still a follower) but I check on it anyway. Me, I'm getting really tired of winter cos I'm an outdoor type guy who loves mountain biking. Has the snow disappeared in Italy yet? You never know when some 'sexually provocative' guys will show up during your studies! - Wayne :)
ReplyDeleteHaha. sexually provocative... Not yet, but I've pretty much stopped expecting them. No, unfortunately, there is still snow on the ground, but the days have constantly been warmer and sunnier. Hopefully, all the snow will be gone by this weekend and the weather will be much warmer.
DeleteFor some reason Blogger is not letting my comments go on sometimes but I'll keep trying! I always read your posts. - Wayne :)
ReplyDeleteI read both your blogs.
ReplyDeleteI always look forward to your comments and your blog entries as well. I guess I need to have faith that you guys are present and attentive even when not in sight... perhaps kind of like god. Hah!
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